I have been thinking lately about a decision that I need to make. Circumstances have come up in my situation, and wanting God's blessings in it, I've been asking Him what to do. I know my destiny is determined by the choices I make, so I need to tread carefully. A lot of times, we make those decisions hastily, and later regret them. I've tried writing down the pros and cons. I've talked to people for their opinions. I've prayed about it. The Bible doesn't deal specifically with my situation, but I know God hears my prayers and wants me to follow Him.
Follow Him. That is really hard sometimes! In order to follow someone, you need to know where he is taking you. You need to see him, hear him, and know where he is. And most importantly, when you follow someone, you need to trust that person to lead you in the right direction with a good destination. With following God, it is a real challenge! A guessing game. I've asked Him to lead me, to close the doors He doesn't want me to walk through, and to open the ones He does. He knows my heart, and I know He won't lead me astray. But how come, until I reach that decision, I feel like I'm in the middle of nowhere?
I can't trust my feelings, though there are plenty of them to influence me! And sometimes I can't trust what others advise, as they aren't walking in my shoes. The only One I can trust is God. As I look back at my past, I can see that God has led me through many situations, and at the time, they were difficult. But now I see they were necessary for growing my relationship with Him. Each trial led me to a dependency on Him. Without the changes, I may have gotten too comfortable with my life and given myself too much credit for how things would turn out. Not knowing the next step leads me to seeking Him more. Isn't that what He desires?
One of my favorite verses is Proverbs 3:5-6:
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding.
Acknowledge Him in all your ways,
and He will lead you in a straight path.
This is a promise from God. He is saying that if I trust Him totally and not try to rationalize or analyze the situation, that He will lead me successfully. I am to give Him all the glory and trust Him to take me where He wants me.
Oh my precious Lord,
I confess that I am trying to
be in the driver's seat of my life
instead of allowing You to take full control.
Help me to let go and let You lead me
to where You desire.
I love You and want to follow You
all the days of my life.
For Your glory.